Saturday, February 11, 2012
I lost 3 lbs. 246
maintained to induction levels. It got easier the second day and on. Today since I weighed in and my mood is down, I ate a honey oat bar for breakfast. I kept in mind that I tend to license myself to cheating after a good weigh in, so I stopped at the carb filled health bar. It was healthy...come on!
I had a hard time sleeping last night. Weird dreams constructing stuff to ward off death and waking up with a remorseful woe. My daughter came to wake me she had nightmares as well. I am a vital part of her life and does not want me to leave and go to my mom. For me to leave now, she would have to quit school. My mom survived WWII she will be OK. I talked to her. My cousin Vince and his wife live in Palm Springs. My mom retired there. As many elegant women do. She is 81 and still drives. All that aerobics in her glory day...(always on a diet like me).
My sister will be cremated with little a do, but much sorrow. (if you missed the news just go back on the blog to yesterday's long saga of emotion).
I will not quit.
Reading book of Job again.
Still on the Je-diet. Perseverance.
A lot of cosmic turmoil coming my way and I am mentally equipped with a light saber and slashing away.