I lost 3 lbs. 246
maintained to induction levels. It got easier the second day and on. Today since I weighed in and my mood is down, I ate a honey oat bar for breakfast. I kept in mind that I tend to license myself to cheating after a good weigh in, so I stopped at the carb filled health bar. It was healthy...come on!
I had a hard time sleeping last night. Weird dreams constructing stuff to ward off death and waking up with a remorseful woe. My daughter came to wake me she had nightmares as well. I am a vital part of her life and does not want me to leave and go to my mom. For me to leave now, she would have to quit school. My mom survived WWII she will be OK. I talked to her. My cousin Vince and his wife live in Palm Springs. My mom retired there. As many elegant women do. She is 81 and still drives. All that aerobics in her glory day...(always on a diet like me).
My sister will be cremated with little a do, but much sorrow. (if you missed the news just go back on the blog to yesterday's long saga of emotion).
I will not quit.
Reading book of Job again.
Still on the Je-diet. Perseverance.
A lot of cosmic turmoil coming my way and I am mentally equipped with a light saber and slashing away.
Bloggie love!
Thinking of you and your family in your loss. You are doing what you must, taking care of things and those you love. Health bar forgiven under the circumstances. I have no words of wisdom, except one day at a time. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. Sorry about your sister!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about you loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteAnd this too shall pass...Sending more hugs!
ReplyDeleteI'm very very sorry for your loss. I'm praying for healing, restful sleep for you tonight and the nights to come.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Try and take it one day at a time and just do the best you can.
ReplyDeleteTake care of your parents and take care of yourself. One day at a time.
ReplyDeleteBlessings!!
So sorry about your sister! I'm in admiration of your ability and will power to stay strong in turbulent times. You are an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteActually, the no quit clause to these challenges and an email session early on the E2E with Mir helped me realize I can still keep to my plans because the plan in itself is not part off the life drama. I started out with drama. It is like as simple as wake up and taking a shower...you just can't up and stop that because other things go wrong. It would be sadness with BO lol. Life. I am wearing my Ben Does Life T Shirt like strength totem. We got to "Do Life". I have talks with when the wind blows.
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss. You are doing what you need to to be there for your daughter so just keep at it! Love the use of Yoda & Star Wars as your guide:-)
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your sister!! (((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you and your family in the midst of all that is going on..
ReplyDelete:( Sending prayers......
ReplyDeleteI glad to see that you are still moving down the scale. I hate to hear about your lose. I will check in on you again later this week.
ReplyDeleteBethany