Day 97

Dylan Thomas Before And After

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night~A BBQ adaptation

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Mine BBQ should burn and rave all of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the aromatic smoke.

Though a wise man at their end know the chicken is right,
Because their juices after forked no reddening they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, steak medium rare!
Their seasoned deeds sizzle a song above an orange bay of embers ,
Rage, rage against the dying of the aromatic smoke.

Oh if you did not figure it out, my project of late is called "Profane The Poet". I am having fun with it.

Day 96

Edgar Allan Poe Before and After

THE CRAVIN'

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary,

Over many a quaint and curious volume of munchies I adore,

While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,

As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my mobile home door.

"'Tis delivery pizza," I muttered, "tapping at my trailer door-

Chicken wings, and maybe more?"

Went to a puddle of a lake just out of town in Rigby, Idaho (birthplace of the TV and the Treadmill) and floated and kicked around for half a day. Brought lots of water. Going to reserve a spot for camping on Wednesday to the weekend. It is a nice little recreation area and local. The outing got a lot of anxiety dealt with. The individuals that were causing me stress...seemed less important and we all had fun.

StS Status

• The loss of Internet prevented me from tracking.

• Have no problem making the blog rounds.

• Keeping hydrated.

• Using the food scale.

• Swimming and some walking.

Decided to leave the scale alone until August. Gonna just have faith and will power.

Thanks for stopping by.

Day 95

Shakespeare Before And After

The Tragedy Of Oreo..

Or Soliloquy of Dunking

O, what a rogue and peasant slave am I!

Is it not monstrous that this player here,

But in a fiction, in a dream of passion,

Could force his soul so to his own conceit

That from her working all his visage wann'd,

Tears in his eyes, distraction in's aspect,

A broken voice, and his whole function suiting

With forms to his conceit? and all for nothing!

For Oreo!

What's Oreo to him, or he to Oreo,

That he should weep for her? What would he do,

Had he the motive and the cue for passion

That I have? He would drown the stage with milk

And cleave the general goblet with horrid dunking,

Make mad the guilty and appal the free,

Have not quit..but am dealing with emotional sabotage self inflicted. I really need a shrink., perhaps. To deal with the routine of depressive emotions cued by environment and situations that drive me there. Riding it out. I will reach my goal. Just moody and complicated at present.

Day 94

Betty Grable Before and After

Karaoke Black Betty from YouTube

Ok well being the rock and roller that I am...the only Betty I know of is from this song  (and another obscure album titled Betty by Helmet). Kinda doin' the Jack Sh*t thing, but not as good. Keeping cool...and back online!

Woah Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

Go Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

Fat Betty eats ice cream
Bama Lamb

It's a Fat Betty dream
Bama Lamb

Baskin and Robbins
Bama Lamb

Tried all the flavors
Bama Lamb

Woah Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

Go Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

All Right!

Whoa Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

Go Fat Betty
Bama Lamb

She likes fried chicken
Bama Lamb

It's finger lickin'
Bama Lamb

With mashed pataters
Bama Lamb

and lots of gravy
Bama Lamb

Whoa Fat Betty

Day 91

Beating the heat laying on the Gator and listening to tunes. I keep my legs moving like cycling and I get up and move to the music here and there...it is so peaceful and cool.

Loved this song when it came on:

Get More: Barenaked Ladies, Pinch Me, Music Videos

And thinking of Barenaked Ladies...Bareneked Before and After Marilyn...

My Internet service will be disconnected until Friday. I bought 200 bucks worth of fireworks...and forgot I had to pay the bill. Called on Monday to make arrangements...but they know all about Internet and how they DON'T make deals with it. I pay 65 a month for full speed LAN. That used to be able to feed a family in a month...but now a days...

Day 90

I made this GIF from a YouTube video using GIMP w/ GAP

I have noticed lately that the Western Tiger Swallowtail is lingering in and out of our yard. I did not notice this last year...and let me tell you that if you are Catholic, please don't take offense of my blaming part of my nature spiritual superstition on that. With things like the Shroud Of Jesus, St. Francis (I call him Frank), the Miracle of Our Lady Of Fatima (I remember it being a great old movie watching it as a kid, although I always felt a sorrow for nuns because they had no husbands), appearance of stigmata, The Exorcist, The Omen and grilled cheezus (lol).

I feel a certain hocus pocus when nature appears suddenly. And there is always folklore that goes with sudden animal appearances from many different cultures.

I also have a fraction of Chinese in my ancestry from my mom's side (yet I can not read tea leaves or bones)...lol. The practice of divining from bird calls, properly called auspicy in the English language, appears to originate in China so says this link to Crow Augury and put me at peace that there was more to what a crow or raven caw is all about (not just bad) and it depends on the direction it comes from and the time of the day...but the wiki concentrates on Roman Auspicy... 

"In ancient Roman religion, the auspices provided divine signs to be interpreted by an augur. An augur would perform a ceremony (known as "taking the auspices") and would read flight patterns of birds in the sky. Depending upon the birds, the auspices from the gods could be favorable or unfavorable (auspicious or inauspicious)". [from above wiki link]

I love gathering up tid bit trivia on stuff like this. It is like that small little section of "Do you believe?" in the funnies on Sunday type of interesting.

One of my first manipulations for the blog was "The Flapper" because I have a printout on my wall above my desk area for over a year now. I like the picture. And I see now how it is symbolic to dieting the transformation of a voracious eating caterpillar to a colorful winged beauty.

It is almost primitive how easy I am influenced by symbolism.

According to Kwaidan: Stories and Studies of Strange Things, by Lafcadio Hearn, a butterfly was seen in Japan as the personification of a person's soul; whether they be living, dying, or already dead. One Japanese superstition says that if a butterfly enters your guestroom and perches behind the bamboo screen, the person whom you most love is coming to see you. [source wiki]

Symbolism involving butterflies has it's own little section in the wikipedia under Butterfly. I get a good feeling when nature appears in front of me suddenly making me notice it...at least with the butterflies. :)

In 1995, I was walking up a dirt road to our relic cabin home at the time on a hill near the California Grapevine about 250 miles north of  LA and found an intact monarch with a tag on it and a toll free number to some UCLA study. I thought that was magical, but was sad that the butterfly was dead when I found it.

Day 89

Saturday I took a long country cruise trying to get my head back in the game. In the process I took some pics of the "wild' asparagus picking process. Wild asparagus, I read is really NOT wild, but just is there growing after farmers planted them in the irrigation ditches to hold the walls because of it's roots going deep and thick.  It was slim pickings. My not to plunder philosophy is if I see two I take one if I see five I take two. I did a six mile stretch and maybe I should of walked more of it.

Sunday I did the mall,but started way in the parking lot 2 buildings away and used my grandbabies as my motivation. We zoomed around and then ended at Barnes And Noble and went back.  Did a snack and drink stop in the middle and a play area stop playing with stranger's kids, but they all just like get along and start playing...kids are cool that way.

In Amazonia, where my daughter was at, they were doing a 3 day Tamale Rollathon. Do you think I wanted to be there? Although they have a crew of family, there my daughter is the only one they trust to help them supposedly. I call it co-dependence.But maybe I am just being the proverbial bitch on a diet. Can't be hating on the tamale eaters.

I ate one and changed my Sunday dinner to chicken nuggets. 64 carb total for the day and 1400 calories...My water was on.

In my carby stupor...I had a vision...Diet Fairy came in sight! It was a white rabbit running with fairy wings and it spoke to me:

Hey you, Scooter Butt! I see you are stressed about the scale...here take this! One time and one time only!

Wow gee thanks Diet Fairy. He said he was late for a party in Onderland and ran off ! Gotta listen to the wabbit...no scale today. Will slide out of this one and hope next week is better. It will keep me sane. (at least my reasonable facsimile of sane). Redeeming the card for this week.

Raquel looks great either way...me thinks. But the paparazzi would tear that one up...How many of those magazines I passed by in life while in the shopping line?

Day 88

Diet flashback circa 1980

When I  was at 23 when I went to the local gym this big muscle dark haired guy opens the door and I did not recognize he was the world kick boxing champion Dennis Alexio (in the Van Damme movie Kickboxer)...I just asked him if he worked there and if it was open. He passed my bike later in his 'vette and gave me a stare at like "there is that girl who thought I was a janitor". His real name is Dennis Dick but he changed it to Alexio for the movies...Apparently he was a local boy from Vacaville, CA done good and lived just a block away from me when he grew up. I was a year new to town...I had gone from 200 to 140 and was working out to get some muscle.(seriously in trouble for gaining so much so fast and being in the USAF reserves).

If it were Van Damme...I wish I would have had the guts that my college friend Turi imagined. She said if she ever saw Robert Wagner in public, she would kidnap him, tie him to a bed and rape him. OMG.

My sister saw Robert Wagner in public at Bonwit Teller back when they had it in Palm Desert, CA Mall. He saw her shirt (she was on break- she worked in the Salon) and called her "Missy" to inquire about something while shopping. Yeah he shopped publically. Wow. He was old enough to be our daddies, but still with Hart to Hart on TV going still strong I think...he was in the spotlight still. (That was pre-bad publicity Van Damme days as well...)

Oh I just googled and found this hubba hubba pic from his book and found out he is as old as my mom...Oh and he is gonna be the voice of Charlie in the new ABC remake of Charlie's Angels that the pilot just recently got OK'd to film...hmmm. He does have a very distinct voice.

Just chillin' and my fu fu's  behind me. Waiting for the scaling on Monday to tell on me or spare me from my sins... LOL.

Day 87

Primal Princess Ellie Mae Clampett. 

She done got this body from eatin wild coon n possum and everthin that they could hunt down back in their home town of Bug Tussle. But then one day her pa Jed, was huntin up sum food and up from the ground came a bubblin crude. Oil that is..not  extra virgin olive or coconut....black oil/black gold, Texas Tea.



Primal Prince Jethro Bodine

Jethro is known as the "six foot stomach" for his ability to eat: in one episode he eats a jetliner's entire supply of steaks! On a diet of mustard greens, coon steak, possum stew and wild animal innards, that boy done grown up to be big n strong. And who couldn't love a man who loves a hound dawg like good ol' Duke?



And all the corn goes into the still fer Granny's Roomatiz Medicine.

Doing what this fat girl does best hiding my sorrow with humor. This week is a scratch for me. I could whine and give details, but just one thing, when you are sick with the flu and think that you can eat because you are gonna lose it anyways...do this at the beginning and not the end of your illness. As soon as I put some cookies and m&m's down my gut, I stopped losing it and it stayed in me. OMG what terrific karma to phathom some sicky cheat scheme and it doesn't work.  Or cookies and m&m's are the cure to stomach flu? Maybe? But years ago I thought the cure was pizza and beer (and a couple of bong hits) to all illnesses.

Keith Richards of the Rolling Stones fame says get rid of the chicken soup and  drink lots of Guiness when you are sick. I still have yet to try Guiness dark. I heard it was thick and sort of chewy? 

Maybe some miracle will happen and I show some weight loss this week.  Hopefully no gain. I should of considered it a miracle that I got the stomach flu after a binge. I mean it hit at some friends then came here and hit everybody but the baby. They all tossed out the orally, but my fortune in life is that the flu loves to take a tour of my intestines and then fly out that way.  I was really in no pain just in the bathroom sitting...TMI

You don't even know how thankful I am to be a part of diet blogging. I thought of all of you when I cheated and almost left town in embarrassment and disappointment in having to tell you all. But I fessed up.

Now back to the f-ing drawing board my dear Sherman!

Day 86

“When I'm hungry, I eat.
When I'm thirsty, I drink.
When I feel like saying something,
I say it.”
~Madonna

I crawled around the web to find some notions on the topic of FAT
AskMen.com search Results 1 - 10 of about 9440 for fat women
I picked out 5 links from the above search to share.

• 6 Ways To Tell Your Girl To Lose Some Weight (dating advice)

• Top 10: Subtle Ways To Tell Her She's Getting Fat (dating advice)

• Women's Body Issues: Their Fault Not Ours

• Do Men Want Skinny Women?

• Doc Loves advice to a letter "She's Getting Fat"

Here is a link from The Huff and article called
"Get Fat And I'm Dumping You"! (a weight gain prenup?)

Men ask com ? I think is is 14 yr olds ask anonymously.com asking can you put somemore hot moviestar pics and write more about sex positions and orgasms.  Do these guys actually get paid for writing garbage?

Cosmo and AskMen did a conjoining survey in 2010 here are the links:
Cosmopolitan Mag Great Female Survey
Ask Men Great Male Survey

Do we really live in a shallow world ?  I would ask those  men that would they feel good to be dumped on over weight issues if maybe it is more understanding for penis size or erectile disfunction or more human like what if he gets in a car accident, bumps his head and is not right after that.  Dump him?

A 2010 low budget Horror comedy movie with Clint Howard and Michael Paré.  I loved Michael Paré  in "Eddie and the Cruisers" and of course "The Philadelphia Experiment". [source]

There is a new kid on the diet blogging block. Please go see her! Love her photo and blog. You will, too.

Go to Carbie Girl NOW

Recovering from my binge. Watched Avatar and then The Last Airbender back to back. It was Avatar day. LOL

Thank you all for your kind support and visits!

Day 85

Eating over and over could not be cuter....but I did not look like this when I emerged from my room to see another nacho cheeserama and hot dogs and soda going on. There is like a half gallon of velveeta salsa dip with a ladle in it in the kitchen. All sorts of chips.

I grabbed the hot dog off my daughter's plate and bit into it. I then grabbed the half gallon of cheese dip and demanded to know where the Doritos were. I took out one of those Black Angus with Vidalia fat boy burgers and put it on the fire. (I had time to do this all). I ate chips in the meantime and said some bitchy words oh no I was asking how much Dog The Bounty hunter gets for catching the criminal.  I didn't like the Cool Ranch and so I went to check on my burger. I made sure my bun was dressed with mayo and a slice of onion. I start biting into it thinking..."this does not taste like I thought it would why am I even eating it quick give it to the dog...no eat half to see if it is tasting any better...then give it to the dog."  I call the dog and tell her to quick eat the nasty thing.

Now I have a head ache and I am tired. I need to meditate and deal with my recovery plan tomorrow.
All I know is that I am tired of walking out to an eating frenzy watching Dog and am so p.o.'d that I let it get to me. This was the third day of the dip trough with ladle and there is still a bag of gooey chips ahoy I never tried in my life, a bag of m&m's the big ones you fill bowls with suddenly appears in the fridge right next to the two Tillamook Cheddar loaves which is only one third of the cheese in this fridge.

The only good thing about this is that it is not just before a weigh. I have 4 days to recover. Guzzling water as I type to make sure I have a flowing river to transport the illegal goods out of my nation.

Day 84

I am starting a new manipulation project called "Love Me, Love Me Not" based on beauty standardization that we are subjected to. I mean we all want to have that body and that look, but look how it (pardon me for my crudity) fucks with our minds if even on a subliminal level. Basically, all my manipulations so far have been pretty much this. I am just upping it a level with known icons. It is good practice for my skills as an artist/hobbyist.

"We eat a lot of lean meat and fresh vegetables".
~Jayne Mansfield

Why are standards of beauty being imposed on women, the majority of whom are naturally larger and more mature than any of the models? The roots, some analysts say, are economic. By presenting an ideal difficult to achieve and maintain, the cosmetic and diet product industries are assured of growth and profits. And it’s no accident that youth is increasingly promoted, along with thinness, as an essential criterion of beauty. If not all women need to lose weight, for sure they’re all aging, says the Quebec Action Network for Women’s Health in its 2001 report Changements sociaux en faveur de la diversité des images corporelles. And, according to the industry, age is a disaster that needs to be dealt with.
The stakes are huge. On the one hand, women who are insecure about their bodies are more likely to buy beauty products, new clothes, and diet aids. It is estimated that the diet industry alone is worth anywhere between 40 to 100 billion (U.S.) a year selling temporary weight loss (90 to 95% of dieters regain the lost weight). On the other hand, research indicates that exposure to images of thin, young, air-brushed female bodies is linked to depression, loss of self-esteem and the development of unhealthy eating habits in women and girls.[source to read more]

I chose Jayne Mansfield first because I like the Japanese Rockabilly band song "I Walk Like Jayne Mansfield" by the 5,6,7,8's. They were in the movie Kill Bill. I really only knew she died and was decapitated in a car accident, so today I was researching that and found a flashback article with some real interesting facts about it [here]. It was surprising.

I am keeping with the same plan as last week since it was successful for me. I am not stressing on the scale, but will do check three days before weigh in to see if I need to buy some cocaine...just kidding. I am in a good mood due to this initial success  with not as much exercise as I should.  Low carb supplemented with vitamins, fish/flax oils, red rice yeast and intermittent fiber pill is being good to me. And the 8 sixteen ounce bottles or more of water.

Stay cool my fellow diet bloggies!

 

[my daily food diary link here]

Here is a healthy large and lovely icon that we all can relate to. Yet still there is the association of slim beauty hinted on this...how can you not just love Jane and how she looks?



Link to Study by University Of Texas professor of psychology Dr. Devendra Singh
with a lengthy title called "Body Weight, Waist-to-Hip Ratio,Breasts, and Hips: Role in Judgments of Female Attractiveness and Desirability for Relationships"

Look inside the book if just to read the author notes in "You Can Be Sexy At Any Size" written by plus sized model Nancy Hayssen  also her FAQ page.

Love yourself. See beyond the media bullshit. You are beautiful. Lose weight because you want to be healthier and maybe more physical, but know you are beautiful at any size.

Marilyn Monroe was a size 14.

Day 83

This has been the best week yet. I really think the water and the sodium watch has a lot to do with it. Not to mention I am really regular with my vitamin supplements and added red rice yeast and fish oil opposed to the flaxoil, but I am taking the flax as well. I omitted cheese as well. I think I only ate a tbsp of parmesan from the shaker in my eggs once. I am at a bbq at the Amazon girls that has quit on joining us.Teriyaki ( I am going home to take chuggy jack out and pick up my own steak without the marinade and some lettuce) How diet anal is that? I had left for the parade without eating just a cup of coffee, so I stole a bar-s weinie out of Amazonia (I love them they are just some tall ass women).

I ate half a tomato as I prepared 4 kabobs with mushrooms. 2 meat 2 chicken and big ones. Also a salad including an egg white. And am back to Amazonia. Will take a pic to share for tomorrows blog. I'm smoking and ain't calling the fire department!
-7.4 lbs (gone forever)
Actually, my daughter also quit temporarily. I watched her macking on those nachos and dipping it in a bowl of cheese dip and eating them new gooey Chips Ahoy. I say F-it. I ain't going back to that! Bring it on!

I also had a light beer and still was at only 18 carbs for the day

Edit around 7:30"- the food was out too long. I resisted chips and bean dip, but I had to scrape some guacamole off the top. Then I ate 2 thighs. I lost some of my power, but I was able to stop. I guzzled 3 bottles of water. LOL

We  have so much fire works.  Did not bring my reading glasses so I could avoid the internet...but I needed to log into myfitness to see what damage my fu fu did. I ate about 300 calories and raised my carb from 18 to 27 thanks to the guac/

 

[my daily food diary link here]

thank you all for your kind words!

Day 82

Right after dinner, it was 94 degrees out there. I am still wet from the pool. It is not one of them concrete ponds here in the Mobi Estates. It is a metal frame 3 foot deep one for the Gbabies. I spent a lot of time in a pool in my youth and if not that, the lake. I learned some tricks to pass on.

I can always have a squirt gun when I go swimming. I clasp my hands underwater and create a vacuum, then I open them slowly, still clasped until I am cupping a good portion of water. I bring it out and then squeeze my hands back into a full clasp as water squirts out my palm just under my pinkies through a hole in the crack between my hands. They all try it. I remember trying and trying when I was shown one summer in the pool. I can really get some distance. It is so rejuvenating to be with children.

We put the pool under our trees so it was not always in direct sun. I have had my fair share of sun in life in the pool and on the tennis court. Nobody likes to burn. We thoroughly screen the kids. They have a new spray on. It gets used up fast though. I was wondering if I was born before sunscreen. I looked it up in the wiki and NO. It was conceived by a Swiss chemistry student in 1938, who had got sunburn mountain climbing but commercial sunscreen only came out in the '40's as "Coppertone Cream". Coppertone was red vet petroleum (a vaseline like substance), cocoa butter and coconut oil and was conceived by a WWII airman and pharmacist to protect the soldiers [source].



Keep strong on this holiday, bloggies.

Keeping focused and hydrated. Looking forward to my weigh in. Kept my sodium low so no water retention.

I saw a really motivational video on a blog called "Undercover Dieting". from Germany, I think but the blog is in English. This blogger only has 4 followers. Maybe you can show some support.

 

[my daily food diary link here]

Day 81

 This vintage cover had the holiday on it...I don't know why she is all wet. LOL. We have the bombest fireworks got to go now. We are doing a package tonight. Just wanted to get this in before midnight.

We went to Sizzler. I did great, but was hungry around 8 so I made a burger and ate the patty. I did the salad bar, but should of just got a side salad for cheaper. I wanted the heart of palms and an avocado, but it seems that they changed their format. No avocado, just guacamole and they had turkey meatballs, but they are processed ones like you get in a bag so I had just 4 one inch ones. Doing water. I know all the local public bathrooms at the places I shop.
 
As promised the monthly Scooter butt progress pic. I had to wear different clothes because they were tighter than the ones I wore last time and it is way way h0t here. That is a 2xl Hot Topic AC/DC shirt that was on sale for 5.99 my daughter just bought me. I have now entered the can buy a concert T-shirt or any 2xl T-shirt realm. My 2 xl's that I managed to keep started fitting me. I have only a couple, but they were tight so I boxed them. I brought one out and wow it fit!

Hey you lookin at my Scooterbutt?

 

[my daily food diary link here]

Day 80

I bought me some red rice yeast and some fish oil. I also have this thing for mushrooms and so I bought a pack in the morning so I could do my low carbing meals. The sliced carne asada meat has perfect 3 to 4 ounce slices of bottom steak and they are lean.

The best 4th of July was in 2009 when I lived  on the Washington State Long Beach Peninsula. It was never ending from dusk to midnight and lots of smoke. The near professional fireworks are legal there. They shoot up just like a city show but a tad smaller. YouTube is filled with party videos from there. The beach is packed. It is 20 plus miles of beach where you are allowed to drive your car and park as well (they don't allow dirt bikes and rec stuff like that, though). It looks like that picture below, all the way up. There are bonfires at night and it is a 20 mile long beach party. The day after, hundreds of people walk the beach to pick up the mess. It is all part of the celebration.

My day went well. I did get to walk and go buy some fireworks with Chuggy Jack and all the g babies. Drank a Sobe Lean Cranberry Grapefruit with low carbs. I kept my salt intake down. I need to really chug some water, though. Will spend the rest of the night (oh it is late). Well the next couple of hours getting my quota in.

I got over my rut. Maybe because my money came in. Yeah that usually does it. Lots of yummies entered the house. I left them alone.

Be strong fellow bloggies. The holidays are always a food fest it seems.

 

[my daily food diary link here]